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As of March 02, 2009,
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Thanks everyone who has followed me so far ♥

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I'm missing some, but I'll find them later ^^;

NOTICE OF CHANGE OF JOURNAL

Because I am incredibly lazy and get tired of having to switch journals to post, edit posts, add people, etc, I have created a community where henceforth all of my fanfiction will be found. You will not need to ask to join, but you WILL still need to join to view R-NC17 fanfiction, as with this journal. I wouldn't recommend joining right away, though, I need to move a few fics to that journal and I don't want your flist to be spammed.

Note that not every fic will be moved there; just the adult rated ones, and whatever series I'm currently writing. This journal will remain open for viewing.

New community --> monologue_x

Thank you to everyone who reads and comments; sometimes I can't get to replying back, but I appreciate them all. Hopefully I'll start writing again soon!

♥

i_collect_cars requested that the third part be posted, so here it is!


Title: Sailor Moon... JE Style! Part III
Characters: The complete list is in Part I, below is who appears in this part.
Warnings: COMPLETE AND TOTAL CRACK. Which I suck at. Parody of Sailor Moon, so don't yell at me or take it seriously or whatever. Everyone is OOC, pretty much =D
Notes: Why do you all like this, seriously?
Disclaimer: None of it is mine.


Part I | Part II

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Happy New Year! ♥

Anyway. I stumbled across the community 50_lovequotes and really liked the idea and the list of quotes they came up with. However, I know I'd never finish all 50 of them, so when I'm bored I'll choose some of the ones I really like and do them, without actually claiming a pairing at the community... hopefully no one will catch me >_> -ninjas- A-anyway, first two ahoy!


Title: Words to Live By (set 1)
Pairing: Yuto x Yamada
Rating: PG ; PG
Warnings: Angst/Romance, I think it's a bit OOC alksjdasd ; Fluff/Romance.
Notes: Things never turn out quite like I expect.
Disclaimer: The boys aren't mine, the quotes aren't mine.
Written: December 31- January 1

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Merry Christmas, everyone.

Title: Warm Hearts
Pairing: Nakajima Yuto x Yamada Ryosuke
Rating: PG
Warnings: Slight angst, but even more fluff and sweetness. Yuto seems OOC to me ): He’s just unhappy and depressed because his Yama-chan isn’t paying attention to him. Mistakes will be caught later.
Notes: Inspired by “Don’t Save it all For Christmas Day.” Originally sung by Celine Dion, but I listen to the Clay Aiken version. It’s a beautiful song, with a wonderful message behind it. It’s kinda sorta a sequel to Cold Hands, and there might be some confusion if you haven’t read it first, but not too much I hope ):
Disclaimer: Definitely not mine.
Written: December 21

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Written in my attempt to procrastinate from studying. It's a pattern, I'm beginning to notice; I always write the most when mid-terms/finals come up... >_>

Title: 5 times Yuto thought Yamada was sexy.
Pairing: Yuto x Yamada
Rating: Light R. The implications are there, nothing too explicit though.
Warnings: Yamada is too hot to be 15. Mrrh.
Notes: I’m working really hard to remember that each ‘time’ doesn’t have to be a full length fic in itself xD Which is why things come out so slowly u.u Last one is kinda lame, because by then I had all four of them done days ago and just wanted to get it out. Heh. For the Yamajima-thon.
Disclaimer: The boys aren’t mine, of course. The plot is.
Written: December 8- December 16

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And now... back to studying. Wish me luck on my Japanese/East Asian History finals! DX

Uhm. So I fail with prompts. But here's my first contribution.

Title: what could have been
Pairing: Yuto x Yamada
Rating: PG
Warnings: All include alternate universes/timelines. None of them are connected to each other, and can be seen as their own separate little drabbles.
Notes: For the Yamajima-thon ♥ There’s only four of them because… I fail. And I didn’t want to think of a fifth one LOL. Basically I interpreted it as "other ways Yamajima could have met than how they did." Or something.
Disclaimer: Yuto and Yamada are not mine; every other character was somehow fabricated by me to an extent. (Obviously their mother's exist, but I made up their names and personalities.)
Written: November 4, 2008

5 4 first meetings they could have had.

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As moderator of the yamajima comm, and seeing as how this journal is mostly YamaJima anyway, I'm posting today to advertise the

YAMAJIMA-THON

Please check it out? ♥

I swear I'm working on iinky and everything else, promise.

It’s sad that I wrote most of this in one day but didn’t finish the rest until a month later. What can I say, I’m busy- when I’m not doing homework, in class, or hanging out with people, I’m either being lazy and chatting with Rae or sleeping. Or wishing I could be asleep. Such is the life of a college student D:

This chapter focuses on, again, Yamada’s own inner turmoil, specifically being the only one with knowledge of what’s going on. More craziness.

Title: if i never knew you
Pairing: Yamada Ryosuke x Nakajima Yuto
Rating: PG
Warnings: Mind bending, insanity, angst. Not betaed, heh.
Notes: Uhm yes. This is the point in the story where Bre realizes she has no idea where she is going with this 8D No, I kid. I hope this is satisfactory- after so many nice reviews for the last chapter, I worry that the rest won't live up to it ^^;;
Disclaimer: Not mine.
Written: August 16-September 22.

part i || part ii

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OKAY. So this is beyond late. And there’s a reason, on top of me having supreme writers block. About halfway through the original draft, I decided to change on thing that affected most of what I had already written. So I had to rewrite about three pages of it.

And. I’m just slow.

Title: if i never knew you
Pairing: Nakajima Yuto x Yamada Ryosuke
Rating: PG
Warnings: Yamada going crazy and having mental break downs. And yeah, that pretty much sums it up.
Notes: The title is somewhat explained? I don’t know, there are longer notes at the bottom but it’s just me explaining my own patheticness XD
Disclaimer: Not mine.
Written: July 15-July 23. This doesn’t include the original draft, which honestly had been started after I posted the first chapter XD;

part i

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Yes. I make too many excuses. I hope that was satisfactory, after such a long absence u_u

I feel like this is crap and I sometimes think no one will understand what I was truly trying to say, mostly because my head and heart are so cluttered with different emotions and thoughts I’m not even sure what I was trying to say. I'm not even sure if I want to go through with posting it.

… and the overuse of the word puppet isn’t suppose to make it sound like JE is some kind of military boot camp or tyranny or dictatorship or whatever D: Honest. And my need to explain my crappy writing comes from my mental issues. I have them, I tell you, no one seems to believe me D:


Title: The Littlest Puppet
Pairing: Yamashita Shoon + Yabu Kota
Rating: G-PG
Warnings: wtf is this. Deals with random thoughts about Hey! Say! JUMP and Shoon.
Notes: There’s a huge jump from the beginning of this, up to the italics, and the rest of it. It was probably a bad idea to not rewrite the beginning to make it flow more, but oh well. The beginning was before HSJ even debuted, and the rest from today. It was originally a Yamabu fic, which is why even though I should have added more Hikaru, I decided to keep it centered around Shoon and Yabu. Mostly Shoon, though.

wtf am I going on about? Just don't read this >< It probably doesn't make sense and the point of it kept jumping around.
Disclaimer: Not mine.
Written: April 22 07- July 23 08. Yeah, that’s April of last year.

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My right eye really hurts ): I joked with a friend that I'm going to go blind. But it wouldn't be much of a difference because I'm practically already blind.

Title: None, this is just a stupid drabble xD
Pairing: Nakajima Yuto x Yamada Ryosuke
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Kissing, love bites, and humor. Mm yes.
Notes: I found this drabble while searching for an old Shoon x Yabu fic that I suddenly have the urge to finish (if I can figure out what to do with it...) Honestly, I'm just posting it so I can delete it from the file XD
Disclaimer: Not mine
Written: July 15 (... uhm. That's not this July 15th, the one that just passed, I can tell you that. So yes. I wrote this a year ago -_-)

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I KNOW I KNOW I'M LATE WITH IF I NEVER KNEW YOU AND PROBABLY 2348534 FICS AND UGH. Writers block. But uhm, the deal with IINKY, I was writing it, then all of a sudden I decided to change one little tiny detail that uhm, called for an entire rewrite of the chapter. Heh. So uhm. It'll be out before I go to college? D:

Title: It's the Sweetest Thing
Pairing: Nakajima Yuto x Yamada Rysouke
Rating: PG
Warnings: Fluff, humor
Notes: Something short, sweet, and humorous, to try and get my gears turning again. Based off of the Happy Date scans and yeah. My Japanese is non-existent, so I really have no idea what the article is about, not that it looks difficult. IDK, you get my point, right? This was written in like. An hour. So it's not meant to be a great piece of literary work. IT'S SHORT, SWEET AND HUMOROUS D:
Disclaimer: Not mine. Simple as that.
Written: July 19

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I don't like the end >> It feels like I rushed through it, even though I wrote the end part before the beginning >_<

EVERYONE IS WRITING YUTO!SADFIC NOW AND I CAN’T STAND IT because heartbroken Yuto’s make me cry D: Even though he’s really pretty when he cries. REMEMBER SENSEI WA ERAI!? I screen capped the moment where he was crying and I’m like YUTO WHY DO YOU CRY SO PRETTY. So I twisted it around to make it Yamada!sadfic. Except it’s more like Yamada!crazyfic.

Title: if i never knew you
Pairing: Nakajima Yuto x Yamada Ryosuke
Rating: PG
Warnings: What would happen if Yuto just randomly dropped off the face of the planet and everyone forgot about him? YAMADA WOULD GO CRAZY. I don't even know how to describe this. I can't remember the name for the genre it would be.
Notes: Yamada takes things for granted and doesn’t realize it until they are gone. Seriously, if I had Yuto crazy about me I'd be returning it, YAMADA D<
Disclaimer: Not mine.
Written: May 12- May 18

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Title: Secret Lover AKA 5 times Hikaru was jealous of Keito's secret girlfriend + 1 time Hikaru found out that Keito really didn't have a secret girlfriend
Pairing: Hikaru x Keito, Keito x his-non-existent-secret-girlfriend
Rating: PG
Warnings: IDK. This thing should just burn. OOC Hikaru with a too-obvious-crush. Keito’s dating a nun. I should stop trying to write humor D:
Notes: UHM. This wasn’t anything like I thought it would be. You can tell I’ve watched One Pound Gospel lately D: I hate my writing. I don’t know how to write Hikaru, I don't ever write him D: Plz to ignore this. For HSJ-thon.
Disclaimer: Not mine.
Written: April 20-21

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Lack of Yamajima makes me sad and emo. And then I angst. And then I write angst. Not that I can really write angst. It’s like bittersweet angst. And then I wrote Yamabu angst that I don’t even like. In conclusion: Bre doesn’t write angst. Bre shouldn’t write angst. Other people should write Yamajima.

Title: Always Some of the Time
Pairing: Yuto x Yamada
Rating: PG
Warnings: Semi-angst? I’d call it bittersweet. Yamada is manipulating us all into thinking he’s a sweet boy and Yuto’s just a clingy Fanboy.
Notes: idk. Someone stop me from writing kthnx.
Disclaimer: Not mine.
Written: April 15th

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So I was watching Show wa Heisei whatever-it’s-called and the height difference between Yuto and Yamada made me LULZ. I knew there was a difference, but I didn’t realize Yuto was like a head taller than him. Oh Yamada, stop adding to your uke quality D:

Title: I'll name it later. Or someone could always give me a name :D?
Pairing: Yuto x Yamada
Rating: PG
Warnings: Chibi Yamajima love? Conniving and seductive Yamada? Oh come on, you know he was training on how to seduce people even at that young age D:
Notes: This was a challenge given to me by blahchiharu. Something about what happened after Yuto gave Yamada the bedroom eyes during Yamada’s auditions. idek. Yamada seduced Yuto into getting him into JE, because we all know that Yamada is a conniving little thing. This seemed to start off in one direction and then veered off to another halfway through when I realized it wasn’t going along with my plan. Yamada will probably seem bipolar.
Disclaimer: Not mine
Written: … don’t remember.

( Yamada scowled, rolling his eyes at how his mother made it sound like she was trying to marry him off to the royal family. )

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY, RAE! ♥

Title: Obsession is Just a Strong Word for Love
Pairing: Yuto x Yamada
Rating: R-NC17
Warnings: See the rating. It’s almost like a Yamada centric version of Boyish Curiosity (without taking place in the same universe). But not at all. There is a quick mention of that girl Yuto is suppose to be dating, or at least I think it was her, I didn’t do too much research and just grabbed the first name I saw.
Notes: THIS IS SO COMPLETELY ILLOGICAL BUT when was I ever logical? I mean, come on, would a logical person write about two innocent 14-year-old boys as pornstars or make them into anthropomorphic animals or whatever other crazy thing I’ve done recently? I DON’T THINK SO. I blame it all on Rae. And because I do, I decided to celebrate it by writing her a story for our 1 and a half year anniversary LOVE YA, BABE!
Disclaimer: Not mine, so don’t cry to me about how they would never do these things D: You don’t know that! –shot-
Written: I dunno. Some day until today.

( Some best friend I am, he thought bitterly as he turned onto his side and hugged his pillow to his chest. Getting worked up over a stupid rumor and being angry because he’s jerking off to thoughts of Yurina Kumai and not me. Obsessive stalker fan is more like it! )

-chuuuuuuuuu-

Due to, ahem, extenuating circumstances (AKA Bre is a high school senior -__-;; and a basket case) I was unable to finish anything in time for Yabu’s birthday, which frustrates me to no end but things like this happen. Even so, I decided to finish what I had started, even if I am days late now- it was more like a personal essay anyway, and I actually felt weird about it because it had nothing to do with Yabu’s birthday at all. Oops ^^;; I still feel a bit silly, because note: this entire essay is my thoughts on him. I usually don't ramble this much about my favorite boys, but... ah well. Read it or don't ^_^

When I first began to like Ya-Ya-yah, Shoon was my favorite. He was my ‘immediate attraction,’ the one where from the first minute I saw him I went “I like him.” It probably doesn’t help that I got into Ya-Ya-yah because of a Shoon centered fic ;) I did like Yabu- I always claimed him as my ‘second favorite,’ the one who I would fan over when he did something particularly cool or if Shoon wasn’t around.

I’m not sure when my preferences shifted… it was very gradual. It built up, until one day I realized… I liked Yabu more then Shoon. I still love Shoon, and there are times when he’s all I can think of. But only Yabu is special enough to firmly hold almost the highest place in my heart- the only Johnny’s boy, or even celebrity, who beats him for my love (LOL that sounds funny, yes? XD) is Imai Tsubasa, who my close friends will know I absolutely adore. They are both also the ones that I tend to talk about the least- some people would probably be surprised that I don’t love Yamada Ryosuke or Nakajima Yuto more, based on how much I talk about them (I do love them, don’t get me wrong- they tie for third on my list XD). But that’s just how I am, I suppose.

But going back on point, what could have caused a shift in preferences? Why do I love Yabu so much? Of course there is a list of reasons, but I’m going to focus on the most obvious one.

Yabu Kota is one of the most beautiful teenage boys I have ever seen.

Now, that sounds extremely shallow, yes? I won’t elaborate more just yet, but it’s as Tyra Banks on America’s Next Top Model (stfu I’m an obsessed fan) says- true beauty, the kind that shines out to everyone, comes from within.

So now, to what this essay is REALLY about- Three Times Yabu Kota was Extraordinarily Beautiful. Please, ignore how cheesy I am being.

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Of course, Yabu has many, many more beautiful moments, and I’m sure people disagree with my choices. I wanted to add many more moments, like times when he was beautiful with Ya-Ya-yah and Hey! Say! JUMP, or my absolute favorite performance of him, Arashi no Carnival (I bet many of you are surprised that I didn’t add this in the first place!). But not only would you all get tired of me fangirling over him after a while, but… well, if I added every moment where I found Yabu beautiful, it would never end.

To wrap all of this up and make it somewhat relevant to Yabu’s birthday- Happy 18th Birthday, Yabu Kota. Here’s a wish to you, hoping that your upcoming years and birthday’s are something wonderful to celebrate, no matter who you celebrate them with, and that you continue growing up into a beautiful young man.



*Credits to prettystar.u.to/, and wherever I downloaded those performances from. Sorry I fail so much D:

There was suppose to be five of these... I only finished two DX Maybe if I hurry I'll finish them before tomorrow ends.

Title: Let's Be Naughty (And Save Santa The Trip) (2/5)
Pairing: Various (Yabu x Shoon and Yuto x Yamada in this batch)
Rating: PG-PG13
Warnings: Sappiness, the regular Christmas related fic stuff, IDK this has all been overdone I think.
Notes: The song title from one of the tracks on Elliott Yamin’s Christmas CD amused me all too much (I forget who it was originally sung by stfu). As did the song. I was going to write a drabble to go along with each stanza and what not... didn't work. So it 'starts' at the second stanza and not the first and yeah just ignore all the lyrics.
Disclaimer: It’s not mine D: Sad.
Written: ??-12/24

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MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY HOLIDAY'S EVERYONE.